Should I stay or should I go?

I am absolutely sick to death of the college I attend right now. I am 95% sure I will not be here next year. I have tried and tried to keep a positive attitude about it but I just can no longer do that. It’s becoming painful.

Exhibit A: I was walking back from class today and Jessica stops me before I even walk in the building. She says, “Meredith, you have a ticket on your car!” I was in shock. At first, I thought she was kidding with me just to get a reaction. When I walked over to my car, I almost puked. It’s a ticket from parking services here at my university to tell me my handicapped pass doesn’t match my parking permit information issued by the university aka the handicapped pass I was using wasn’t mine. No bueno and the fine was $100. I am not one to dishonestly use a handicap sticker. I think that is wrong. It’s my mom’s pass and it was issued to her because she has rheumatoid arthritis. I have it with me for when she rides with me and never use it when I’m not with her. Lately though, I have been using it per my mom’s instruction. You see, there is no parking whatsoever by my dorm. There are about 75 spots for a building with 400 residents because of the construction going on. Are they going to replace the out-of-commission parking spaces? No. They’re gone forever. You seriously have to get lucky to find a parking space here. The next closest parking lot is 2 blocks up the road. Coming home late at night from Gymboree, there are rarely any spots. I called my mom frantic one night last week because there were no spots to be found.  She said for me to go ahead and start using her handicapped sticker so I wouldn’t have to worry about it. Now that I’ve received this ticket, I don’t know how I’ll find parking. Lord help me.

Exhibit B: In each dorm room, we can only control the fan on our A/C and not the temperature. If it blew the correct temperature according to the season or even decided to work anywhere near properly at all, my roommate and I would be happy. For the entire year, we have had major issues with this. It blew heat in the Summer and had blown cool air throughout the winter. We’ve been using a fan and a heater all year to keep us halfway sane. It’s not just us; everyone’s is like that. Why do we pay as much as we do for on campus housing for nothing?!

Exhibit C: On campus dining=dog food. We are required to purchase a $250 meal plan every semester for our first 2 years. Last semester I used about 50 meal trades out of the 150 meal trades originally given. It wasn’t worth me eating just to eat and gagging 70% of the time. I ate what was in front of me because I had to eat. Simple as that. It’s just not worth it.

Exhibit D: I drive 60 miles roundtrip 5 days/week for work. That’s a lot of mileage on my poor Rav4 and a lot of gasoline to buy. The Gymboree by my dorm doesn’t have management openings so I can’t transfer. Blah.

Exhibit E: I just miss Houston. Period. It’s such a wonderful city and I feel so blessed that I got to grow up there. I cry every time I leave not just because I will miss my mom but also because I just love that city.

Exhibit F: I’m going to nursing school in Houston after I finish my prerequisites anyway.

Sorry that was such a long vent. Thank you for staying with me if you made it this far. HAPPY MONDAY :)